9 Days & Still Locked Up

SO HORNY ! That’s about all i can say. So fucking horny.

Locked Up

So, Master is out of town for a while, so that means… click of padlock…bye bye key…all locked up again – but i like it – though never done it this long before, let’s see.

This will be interesting.

Hard Way to Learn

So it’s been a while  – sorry if you’re a sick twisted devoted reader missing your installments 😉 Love to hear comments from you if do drop by and read an entry. i know people read this, just be nice to know who some of you are 😉

This slave got to serve its Master last Thursday, and it was a strange night – really good for the first few hours – Master even let it cum, told it He wanted it to drain its “little slave balls” not for pleasure, but to keep it quiet.

Then one of those mind-fucks that drive me crazy. Master had torn up a tissue into tiny little shreds, and scattered them all over the floor of the main room – and i had to pick them all up by hand. We’re talking about really tiny pieces here, specks of tissue,  very easy to miss, and it seemed like there were new ones appearing behind me on the bits of carpet i’d already gone over. Fuck i hated that.

But it’s for a purpose – to teach me my place, to teach me humility and blind obedience, no matter what, crush the ego – what Master decides is what i have to do. But inside i really was not a happy slave at all. And my Master could tell i wasn’t acting in the spirit that he expects, and that i know i should offer, so after all was done i was told to cool down for a while and He would contact me when He thought i’d be in a better frame of mind. Five days – that felt like 5 weeks – slaves need their Masters much more than Masters need their slaves.

i’m not a Buddhist or a believer in any religion or god, but saw this quote about the ego and think it makes sense here:

“You are encouraged to say to your ego, ‘You have created tremendous trouble for me, and I don’t like you. I will work to destroy you.'” – Chogyam Trungpa

my ego sure gave me tremendous trouble that’s for real.